Friday, October 5, 2007
well, really. please do not question about the odd moments i choose to type my entry.
i really do not know.
i dun study when i am suppose to.
i dun sleep when i am suppose to.
i dun eat when i am suppose to.
i dun do the things i am suppose to.
i will be meeting the whole lot in like 8 hours later, for the usual activity.
studying.
i am beginning to doubt if there really is much use about me writing notes for ss
since there seems to be like endless.
and my a maths and physics are in dire straits.
i will not grumble, because i have to be thankful.
i am even not trying to console myself that i am not the cushion for the ppl in nanhua.
which means last, supporting everyone else up.
so ya, that was what i used to do.
now occasionally between work and sometimes going home,
there's this sense of helplessness in me.
those are the times when i really feel like hecking care.
all this glorified encouragements, are just but glorified.
how much in my work can they help me in?
out of numerous people whom i have asked, only daph said i do look like i am a tindged stressed,
do i look too optimistic, or too unbothered about the rest of my life.
i mentioned that i am stressed because nobody seems to think i AM stressed.
siian said 'then you are stressed about the wrong thing.'
eric and kali brought pens today, as an farewell present in view of the O's.
how apt.
i exchanged the blue now with daphne since she only uses blue and me, black.
then, i went to test the ink, and realised pilot was SOOO much better, so i went to changed with eric again.
i was at my class forum, when i saw all the lame jokes, the 4D no., and even chinese posts.
i especially liked the quotes part, some were really awww.
i wonder, how would it be like if i post ome of my entries in chinese sometimes.
inetresting, cause i figured how many less ppl would stop reading my blog.
oh and people, who actually knows this site, and reads it, pls tag.
so i know there are humans reading.
but, its wouldn't be such a bad idea if the aliens were to start deciphering my entry, only to realise its a full page loaded with crap and grumbles.
opps, okay i shan't grumble.
lastly, i would like to say.
i still dun like huishan, cause i am STILL denied entry.
bahh, wadever, she is the one closing the doors on me. i am helpless.
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