Saturday, September 1, 2007
its un-ber-li-ber-ble! (unbelievable)
quoted by Kotoko in Itazura na Kiss Ep 6.
My Internet is working! Gosh i can't believe it. Haiz, whenever i come home and walk pass the computer room, my heart will just sink. its like taking chocolate away from flea. that serious. well if you actually know flea. the last three days was so packed with happenings so much i couldn't control and take my time to think about it. as it is, i am a very slow person.
on thursday, it was just any full-fledged boring school day, with the constant reminder of how close i am to dying in studies, a failure to the society. after that, i didn't stay on for the night study with the usual group. the plan was to acc flea to get her friend's present in JEC, then we'll head home and i'll sleep without pills this time, according to huishan and daph. well, supposingly it was a rather nice day to try and sleep in, with the torrential rain. but it ended up me watching ratatouille with flea and ks. all thanks to flea not being able to resist the temptation of the show. she went broke that day too. went home around seven plus eight, with a great show still fresh in mind.
on friday, it was supposed to be half day, but ended at twelve plus. what do you say. after the 1.6km walk that eric forced me to go, we came back and the upper sec was supposed to stone in class for an hour.we were notified that eric wanted to see the whole class at 10:30am. so quitting the quarrel over the scrabble word game i was playing with elaine and daph in the library, we ran up 5 storeys. only to find the only thing he wanted to do was to collect travel declaration forms. ¬.¬ oh and get mister (doctor) foo's specially ordered apples. its was quite sweet, both the motive and the apple. but we managed to take the lift down with eric. i won't say class party was fantastic, anyway its was just a mtd by council to settle the overcrowding prob in the hall. other than in the parade square for morning assembly, i can't think of anytime where the entire school got together. but in the end, me and flea sneaked into the hall to watch the performance. well, not entirely sneaked since the doors were open for ex-seniors, and we are, just without the ex. we went in and cught four segments of the performance. those wich got me high was the video by 3/8 and the beat box performance by jhan, elias and others. ( i can't believe i said i knew how to do silent beat-boxing in front of two masters!!!) the video that was done by 3/8 was terrific. the title is A WORLD WITHOUT TEACHERS adapted from Giordano, A World Without Strangers. haha. the lead was huiyun, my new choir chair and my new secretary was the director aka actor. haha and gwen was SOOOO cute. the part i like best is when they show what happend when there isn't disciplinary teachers, betty and the other girl were real good actors. acting like female gangsters. the hairdo were funny too. next, the beat box, its seriously got the whole school awed. they were so so so so so good. i can't believe and no words cant express. they sounded machines specially programmed for music.
just when i left my secondary sch and headed off to my primary school with a high note, i didn't expect my visit back to my primary school to be even better. the shock was zls. he spiked his hair! after somewhat 32 years of his life, finally! oh for ppl who dunno zls , he's like eric, but a chinese teacher. and WAS not vain. his students just seemed to multiply over the years, so much that he had to open up a classroom just to talk to his students in a peaceful and quiet environment. haha, that was when it sort of ended up to a whole bunch of ppl in a big circle playing games (me, huiyu, may, kaiting, victor, alan, alvin, kenneth, jingyu, zhenrui and gideon) shld be that. i forgot if valerie was in. den we started off with heart attack, it proved to live up to its name, as after to rounds, my adrenline was rushing and i got so high, due to the fact that the crads were so fast and when someone shouted "HEART ATTACK!", twenty over hands just piled up in an instant, regardless of the poor cards flying all over. it was the first time i played such a big scale heart attack game! after that we went on to play the winking style of murderer. but it was like hello, i couldn't wink, it just seems like i'm blinking. and when i was the murderer, the victims didn't even know i was killing them! so much for not being able to wink..... the game went on and there were times where almost evryone got killed the killer is still unknown. after a series of events, we then played murderer in another form called polar bear, in palm gardens. it was positively interesting. i even got picked polar bear 2 or 3 times, though i wonder why there were discrepencies on how the polar bear was being picked. two hard pats on the shoulder or a mini touch on the tip of your head. haha, but its doesn't matter. the game was so funny.. in the last few times we were playing, the 'spirits' actually got restless and started kicking football arnd us. haha. the whole thing ended when alvin went off to play LAN. but surprisingly, me huiyu and may met almost the whole lot again in lot one food court. and we sat down for more gossip. eventually the lot went for ratatouille, sth i didn't join simply because i watched it the day before. we took jingyu's football and talked in the library, or rather huiyu and may about their common topic, np. while i sat quietly besides them and finished 6-8 children books. amusing. XD. children books really don't teach you about the correct values. the lot came out from the movie and we went home. returing jingyu's ball of course.
the point is, people whom i never really interacted in the old days, i interacted so much yesterday. the nostalgic feeling overwhelmed me, forcing me to dig out feelings tucked in safely in the corners of my heart. it should be a good thing, it is. isn't it?
till today, i went for Charity Fiesta by NUS and NYAA together with flea and ruth. i was in grp 13. and my trainee was jin yin. she's 24. but when she wrote her name for me in my notebook, i dunno why, i felt so touched. she comes up to my shoulders only, wearing shoes of sizes that can only be found in kiddy palaces. her appearance is the kind people would avoid, just becuase she is so innocent, people wary, of the trouble they might bring. xuewei and me had a little talk with the long term volunteer in charge of bringing the trainees from jurong garden school. i learnt that their appearances and mentality weren't originally like that, its was due to chemical changes in the body resulting in the long term regret. most of them have a undiscovered sad story behind their backs. they lead such innocent yet lonely lives. if you don't doubt a 5 year old kid, then you shouldn't doubt them. their mentalities often stops at the age when they are diagnosed with the illness. some were resigned to the fate even when they were in the womb, it takes them years to understand bit by bit. yet, few understands them, making them very lonely. the chemicals in their body also causes them to be unable to express their feelings in a way we understand, and they end up as tantrums as we would call it. looking at the intelluctually disabled people of age far older than us being happily statisfied by just being able to bask under the sun, play ball games, overcome simplistic playground obstacles with their friends makes me feel old. i even wonder if they are actually the lucky batch who got their wish to stay as a child forever,when i am nearing the gates of adulthood, of troubles, of responsibility.
i felt like a lot has happened, really a lot...
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